2008 has been the worst year of my life. I have bartered two years for something I have never wanted, I have lost two years of my teenage life to a fruit that tastes like water to me.
And now, it's almost over. After being reduced to taking Vitamin-B pills just to stay awake and gulping down chyavanprash to avoid overpowering fevers, my life is almost set to go back to normal. Even though I know, in my heart, that my life has changed forever.
Undoubtedly, I will be reading the Bhagvad Gita after all this is over. I feel a spiritual void, an emptiness. I feel shame and pride, both at the same time. I fear looking into the mirror, because I would see the ravages of the present and recent past. Countless times I have wanted to end it all in one stroke, in the most inhuman way possible.
And each time, I was saved. And I will be saved again, and again. April 12, April 26. And peace be upon us all.